Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Four Months

Today it has been 4 months... the longest and shortest 4 months of my life. I have been trying to figure out a way to put our whole story into words, and am finding it very difficult. Sometimes, as useful and magical as words are, they fail to accurately illustrate the subtle complexities of very emotional events. I will think for a while, and then I will write.


Steve Cotton said...

If you write your story, I think you are going to be surprised at how easy the words come. Don't organize. Just start writing. You can always edit later. The process itself is amazingly healing. As always, you are in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

I just stumbled onto your blog. I am a native Salvadorena but grew up in the U.S. The last time I visited El Salvador is 22 years ago. My family just do not want to return for a long visit. My mom said "bad things happen to those who return." I do mourn my inability to reconnect with my motherland. I find it ironic that you are trying your best and hardest to ensure your daughter still feels a kinship with El Salvador while I am doing the same for my daughter and Kenya. :) Like your husband, my daughter's father had to return to Kenya and make a go at making a decent life there. I wish you the best and I envy you at fostering a relationship with my own country. Abrazos. I will visit your blog again.

aighmeigh said...

Steve, the first part came out easily, but since then I have been hesitant to continue. I think I've found every excuse in the book to not write too... one of these days I will just have to sit down and get at it again.

Anon, thank you so much for stopping by and sharing your story. I do feel a connection with El Salvador and am happy that I get to develop that connection more, even after my husband's death. It is such a beautiful place. Yes, some very ugly things happen there, but I find that to be true everywhere. Your daughter is a lucky girl to have two such interesting cultures to explore. I wish you the best of luck with your journey!