Thursday, December 11, 2008

Over the edge

Well, I think it's happened. I think I've officially been overcome by stress.

There's too much to think about and I've got too much to do in the next week. I'm leaving Indiana 1 week from tomorrow.

1 week.

And I am not packed.

And I still have to work.

And I have to sell my car (which is not paid off).

...and pay bills with a rather pitiful savings.
car: $390
insurance: $111
student loans $200
credit cards: $100 (which is paying over the minimum, but the point is to pay them off, right?)

that's a total of $801 a month... and $501 of that is for a car I won't even be driving!!!!!

Seriously folks, I'm stressed.

And let's talk about how clearheaded I absolutely wasn't during the planning of this move:
  • I overbought things that I could have waited on: I'm planning a trip back to the US in the summer!
  • I didn't really think about the fact that it would likely cost just as much to move via shipping boxes down than it would have to hire an international mover, and I'd have less to show for it: lesson learned. Move on.
  • Choosing to move post Christmas was idiotic. Let's think about this: the holidays are typically the most stressful time of year for folks (on multiple levels), and moving is supposed to be one of the most stressful events people can go through in their lives (ranks up there with divorce and having a new child, if I remember correctly). There I go just putting them both right together... and yet, I ask myself why my savings is half of what I wanted it to be before I left... seriously, I'm ridiculous!

I don't want it to sound like I'm not happy and looking forward to this move. I am, more than I can explain... I just wish I didn't let my emotions cloud my thinking so much...

This too shall pass... and it will work out. It always does.


Aimee said...

Hello! I just wanted to introduce myself. I have been following your blog for a few months now. My daughter is Salvadoran (joined our family through adoption). I look forward to learning more about El Salvador through your experiences! I desparately crave information on El Salvador. Good luck on your move! Keep posting!!

chicadedios25 said...

Yes, This to shall pass. You will make it and it will all be worth it once you get to El Salvador.

aighmeigh said...

aimee, congratulations on your beautiful daughter! i hope that i can help you get to know el salvador a little bit once we're down there for good! :)

chica, thank you :)